Paranoia is the concept of fearing what might happen, so you anticipate the worst in a moment, and bring in your self the worst or the best.
after living all that that much, i have learned that you just let go let go to yourself to your own benefit, that moment haven't came yet, and it could bring in every thing good, but you might not enjoy it because you put too much fear in it or hate, just watch it as a cloud moving by.